A few years ago someone really close to me went through a traumatic life changing event. There was nothing I could do about it and I felt completely helpless. I turned to food for comfort. Of course this did not work out very well for me. I ended up gaining 30 pounds. I was so uncomfortable in my own skin. I was depressed and stressed out because of it. For someone who has struggled with eating disorders since the 8th grade, I knew I wanted to lose weight but I wanted to do it the right way. It took me a while to figure out what the right way was for me.
Now at this point in my life I am down about 35 pounds. BUT to me it is not about the number on the scale anymore. My life has been consumed by the scale in the past.
I am writing this blog post today because I want people to realize it is okay to be comfortable in your skin, whatever that means for you. But also make sure you are living healthy.
I have been body shamed when I was overweight and also body shamed at the weight I am now. Why is that? This is so frustrating to me. I am really healthy right now. But I have heard multiple times from different people that I need to gain weight and eat more junk food. I do not need to gain weight. I am at healthy weight. I also eat plenty of junk food. Probably more than I need to. But I also eat healthy foods too. It’s all about balance.
Sure I wish my boobs still looked the way they did when I was 18 and I do wish my stomach was flatter. But I know now not to concentrate on that. Do not let your imperfections consume you. Beauty is everywhere. You are beautiful. And beauty is more than your appearance.